ash-bunny

Here's to another year...
Let's hope the next is better for us all.

  

This is my absolute favourite time of the year.

Who else is enjoying this beautiful fall weather?

I have a great difficulty putting things into words. Things have gotten pretty bad here, and I honestly don't even know how to function. Obviously I need to change my surroundings, try to start over somewhere new, and finally have my own space. The problem is my difficulty with change. I don't understand why I can't just do something that clearly needs to be done. It's been going on for far too long but there's something always holding me back and I end up cowering again. It took five years to leave an emotionally abusive relationship and even then I feel like holding on, when it's clearly destroying my sanity. I have no friends here, and basically no support system that will actually help me. When I say help I don't mean financial, just emotional support, and even help to move. I'm surrounded by people who clearly want to hold me down in life, and seem to have succeeded. I have no idea where to start meeting friends in real life and the thought of it is daunting.

Where do other honorificly awkward people make friends?

Err...I don't know where this was going...my thoughts are all over.

How is everyone else doing?

   

I feel like I'm losing it...

   



Sometimes you just wish the day could be better...